I have been offline for a while as I let the good news actually sink in. I got past 3 months. I am officially in my second trimester now at 14 weeks pregnant. It still takes me time to really believe it. Mr. T and I have been walking around in a daze pretending to be effective and get things done but all the while not really believing what is going on.
Anyway I have taken up my prenatal yoga with renewed vigour - I now do a walk and yoga everyday, which feels so good. And I have regular TCM and massage sessions, which is also a God send. But apparently very essential and good for preparing for a healthy natural birth according to Dr. Gowri Motha (but more to come on that later). Anyway so the point of this post is baby reiki. I had my first reiki session a few days ago and absolutely love love loved it. The reiki lady was so lovely and I could have talked to her for hours. Basically I told her that I have tried not to really connect with my baby as a way of protecting myself in the first 12 weeks. I wasn't even sure if it was still there and I was very aware of not falling too in love in case my heart was going to be broken again.
But now I feel that I need to connect. I need to make up for that lost time and I want to be present and enjoy the rest of this pregnancy. She was amazing and really spoke through all my emotions and things I could do. (She even gave me a great tip for nappy rash, okay I know that's way too early yet, but I appreciated it. The tip? Breast milk.) So we finally got round to the reiki. It was amazing, I could feel energy moving, sometimes it felt like she had four hands, which was a little freaky! Afterwards she told me that I was totally in balance and that doing reiki on me was like doing reiki on a very healthy person - yay! Also she did some reiki on the baby. She said it is always incredible doing reiki on an unborn baby as the energy flows the other way. With adults the energy flow is very much from her to the patient but with a baby she gets a huge rush of energy coming out. She said the energy flow was very powerful and it was clear when she was hovering over the baby. This was so reassuring but also really helped me to connect with Bam Bam and think of him as a growing bundle of energy.
I don't think that I am showing quite yet but I know it won't be long. I just can't wait until I feel the baby move for the first time. I did all my pregnancy blood tests this morning that are standard for Morocco - blood count, VD screening, glycaemic levels and toxoplasmosis. So hopefully they will all come back normal and we can move forward to the next milestone with lightness and ease. Off to do some prenatal yoga now and get my hips more flexible.... Namaste.
