THE WEIRD
1. I dreamt that I gave birth to a cat. It was actually my cat - Archimedes. In my dream I turned to Mr. T and said "I am happy with the cat but I wish it was a human baby." When I woke up I reached down and touched my belly and felt reassured that I was still pregnant and hadn't actually given birth to a cat. I then reminded myself that the last scan had clearly shown a human form and not a cat. Am I a total freak? Or does this dream have a bigger meaning?
2. Mr. T wants to be pregnant too. He told me he is jealous that he doesn't get to feel what it is like to be pregnant. I told him that it has been hard enough getting me pg, let alone him. I told him I thought he was a bit weird. Did he want to give birth too? No. He replied. Quite firmly. Ha ha ha!
3. Pebbles moves so much now but in ways that feel really really weird. Sometimes it feels like she is doing a Mexican wave inside my tummy. Other times I feel like my skin is going to burst and she is going to pop out - a bit like that scene in Alien. Gotta get that image out of my head.
THE WONDERFUL
1. My Mr. T turned to me the other day and said something really sweet. He said "when the baby comes if you see me doing something wrong please tell me. I really want to be helpful and be just as capable with her as you are, but I know I don't know as much as you do." Firstly I don't agree with him on all that. But I knew the intention behind his words and it just melted my heart. I reached over and gave him a big hug. Then I told him we will both be learning. She doesn't need perfect parents, she needs us. And that if he asks for my advice I will give it but I will not criticize while he is figuring things out. I have seen friends do this and I have seen husbands sit back and do less for fear of doing something wrong. I have also spoken to girlfriends who bite their lips and force themselves to walk away when they want to criticize something their man is doing but know they shouldn't despite the enormous urge to! This has resulted in their husbands being more hands on and more confident and capable with their babies. A much better result.
2. So far (30 weeks tomorrow!) I have no stretch marks a.n.y.w.h.e.r.e. No varicose veins. No water retention or swelling. Normal blood pressure. Normal iron levels. No toxi. I am one happy mama.
3. Today we are going away for a mini-vacation! Just a long weekend really to a small coastal town called Essaouira where we have rented a villa in the countryside with a (saline!) pool. It's our last trip away where it will just be the two of us. Although we have been wanting to go from two to three for a long time, now that it is actually happening we thought we should take advantage of our last holiday as a couple. The plan is to sleep, eat and just have fun in each other's company. So catch you when I get back!!
