Power Yoga Banned!

I love power yoga. Or ashtanga yoga, as it is also known. It's a very vigorous form of yoga, where you sweat and move quickly. There's lots of jumping, internal organ compression and stomach work. The poses are often very challenging and I usually remain on option 1 while my yoga teacher progresses on to option 4, with her legs and arms doing things that I hitherto thought were humanly impossible. 

I've been doing ashtanga yoga throughout my TTC jouney and I KNOW it's done me the world of good. I feel energized, more supple and things seem to work better. However in the back of my mind I had this nagging feeling about whether all this movement and internal organ compression was good while trying to get pregnant. More specifically while in the TWW. During my last TWW after an IUI, I was at yoga and a girlfriend of mine (who has also been through her own TTC hell) asked me if I should be doing this. It was the first time I really considered it. I always thought that it was good to be active during pregnancy and that sport wouldn't stop me from getting pg.

So I decided to do my own research. And lo behold, there are some forms of yoga (and other exercise) that you shouldn't do while pregnant or in the TWW. And one of them is ashtanga. Oops. Apparently all the jumping can dislodge the fertilized egg from the uterus wall. And all the internal organ compression is not good for implantation or maintaining a pregnancy. Yoga is very good for pregnancy but certain positions are not. So I have decided to keep going to yoga classes but not do any of the positions that involve jumping, organ compression or stomach work. I will be very careful and take it nice and easy. I stopped yoga for 10 days already but I really feel like I want to get back into it now. Exercise is good, right? I'll just have to take the power out of the power yoga! At least until I know one way or another...

This is more like it.

*** I just wanted to say thanks to all of you who stopped by from LFCA. I had no idea that Mel had put me up there. I am so glad she did, as having you stop by and comment is making this TWW easier. If you don't know what LFCA is, go and check it out here. Thanks Mel, you rock!***

Staring At...

It's nearly been a week since my IUI. I am starting to get on board the maybe-pregnancy crazy train. Everyday I look up pictures of blastocyst development, imagining what my little blastie might be doing, if there is even one there. If we are blessed enough, and fertilization has taken place, then implantation would be happening around the next few days. I am following this TWW day by day, google search by google search, twinge by twinge. 

Choo choo, all aboard the crazy train!

On the day of my IUI when I was being scanned in the morning, I was left alone in the ultrasound room at the clinic. I went over and looked at all the ultrasound pictures hanging on the wall. Black and white fuzzy pictures of recognizable baby forms. I stared for a particularly long time at the smallest baby - still very much in embryo form and I instinctively reached out and gently touched the picture. To have a connection with it. To believe that one day this would be my ultrasound scan I was staring at. I just want this one. Just this little itty bitty one. The tears started to well up in my eyes and I suddenly remembered I better get my underwear on before Dr.B starts to wonder what I am doing in here. 

Time to stop staring at ultrasound scans that aren't mine. Time to stop looking at blastocyst day-by-day development - blastocysts that aren't mine. Time to just breathe and have hope. Maybe, maybe, maybe, baby?

I really really really want this. Sigh.

Getting Older

Mr. T turned 31 today. Happy Birthday Mr. T! I hope we have a baby before you look like this...

But just so you know, I'll still love you even when you look like this. By then, my eyesight probably won't be so good :)