But there was something else too. After the whole not being pregnant, going to the doctor and going ahead with IUI... AND a whole load of pregnancy announcements last week, I got down. I mean real low down. I was frustrated. Hurt. Tired of it all. Part of me still is. So going on a short blogging break and thinking everything over was good.
I'm also a little apprehensive about the IUI. First because this is Morocco and I don't know the doctor that well. He came recommended by friends but others have said he is a little old-fashioned and I'm starting to think measuring my uterus with a stick he inserted rather than by ultrasound-wand is a little too olden days for me. I mean doesn't inserting something through my cervix and into my uterus put me at more risk of infection (not to mention making me a lot more uncomfortable)? Should I be doing IUI with this guy? Or is that just the way they do things here? And if so, do I like this, or should I go back to the UK instead for this procedure? And why trigger me with a suppository, why not with an injection? I heard yesterday that Morocco no longer allows pregnil to be imported into the country and so the only option is the suppository.. but why? So do I go back to the UK? I feel like I have a million questions.
I am going to see another GYOBN this week just to make sure. I'll see what his approach is exactly and then make the decision. As with everything TTC, time is of the essence. I'm scheduled for my ovarian scan on Friday and then triggering could be any time after that. So I guess I better get my skates on.
Or... wait until next month? Except next month is off because we're traveling, so it's now or August. Forgive me for saying this, as I do think mother nature is pretty damn amazing, but sometimes, just sometimes, she can be a bitch.
