I usually don't make new year resolutions, since I usually have no intention of keeping them. But this year I figured that if I posted them on my blog I may be more motivated to at least try. I decided to stick to seven resolutions as this is more realistic than a long list that will be forgotten by next week. So here goes:
1. To keep up with my prayers. I have found it hard to pray since all our IF trauma began but I now resolve to put that aside and start doing my prayers. I know I will find this calming and helpful for my state of mind once I get going, I just have to get myself into it again.
2. To go to yoga three times a week and dance twice a week. I will do some form of sporting activity everyday even if it's just going for a walk. This does not include sex, that's an optional extra ;)
3. To only have chocolate once a week. Over the holidays I have gorged on the brown stuff aplenty, my addiction is in full throw now and I have had chocolate everyday for a month now. Yes my jeans are feeling a little tight. So I need to go cold turkey. As of tomorrow no more delicious dark stuff for 2 weeks. Then I can reintroduce it just once a week on a special choc choc day.
4. To have date night with Mr. T every week. This means no TV or other distractions, just us and a romantic dinner. Though Mr. T will have to agree to this and I will have to get him to ignore his email for an entire evening - not an easy task, though I have my methods....
This usually works.
5. To cook more. I would like to eat in more and try some new recipes to expand my culinary repertoire. If you have any healthy, preferably veggie or fish, recipes please send them to me. Although any really delicious must-have recipes will be gratefully received even if they are a bit naughty and not so healthy!
6. Knitting. I have started. My mum got me started with a few gifts over Christmas and spent boxing day teaching me to knit. I love it. I am totally addicted and can't stop. It is really relaxing and gives me a great sense of well-being, even if I am not very good yet. I have started on a simple throw with some fluffy cream wool and I hope to be making all sorts of things by the end of 2010. Please let it be baby blankets! So my resolution is to keep knitting, to get good and start making useful things soon, otherwise our apartment will be full of the useless rectangles of knitwear I am currently experimenting with. I think a special post on my knitwear creations may be upcoming... ugh that sounds dull, I promise to try to make it interesting.
7. And finally to laugh more and have more fun! Mr. T and I agreed on this a few days ago, we decided that this is what we really want out of life so we need to make sure we have more of this in our lives.
I have not included any TTC or baby-related resolutions. I do not want to set any rules or standards by which I think I should feel or behave. My IF emotions change all the time and I have to be free to find coping mechanisms to deal with these. Though I want to set certain limits for the ways I cope with IF within these resolutions, which means no gorging on chocolate when I get a BFN or am down with the baby-blues and no refusing to talk to God when I am angry about my IF predicament. I've done nearly two years of this now and I think it's time to set some boundaries for my own well-being.
However, all of this will have to begin tomorrow, since I have spent all of today in bed sleeping, eating (yes, chocolate included), and watching nature documentaries on TV. Well I did dance my socks off last night and we did get home after 3am so I think starting my new year resolutions on January 2nd is perfectly acceptable. Ooh, it's nearly midnight. Better have that last bit of chocolate.
