But. It's not just that. I went to see Dr. B yesterday to see where I'm at with my cycle. He did the dildo cam thing - which I have to say I am becoming rather fond of - I love seeing all my insides up on the screen. And. I am so lucky. It was textbook. Endometrium, ovaries, follicles, everything. He even told Mr. T everything was perfect. Gasp. Perfect. That made me feel so good. Mr.T's reaction? So it really is all my fault. Oh Mr. T! It's no one's fault. Let's be thankful it's just one of us who has a problem and not both. We are lucky in this.
So on CD 9 now, and I start doing OPKs tomorrow to get ready for our next IUI. However there was a slight misunderstanding between Dr.B and me. I was telling him about Mr. T's good SA results and that I thought we stood a good chance in the next few cycles. He agreed. So he said we'll just go ahead naturally. I agreed. No pregnyl, no progesterone, just OPKs and a scan. We talked like this for 5 minutes, when Dr. B said okay so just have sex, let nature take it's course and then after a few cycles we can talk again. Oh. Okay. You think no IUI? But Dr.B, we're here because we want to do an IUI this month. I don't know why Dr.B would think we would come to the clinic if we were going to try naturally this month - why would we make an appointment and wait in the clinic for 30 mins to tell him that? He shrugged his shoulders and said okay, we can do an IUI this month if that's what you want. Mr. T looked at Dr.B and said "She's the boss." Hee hee. I love him saying that! Cos when it comes to TTC, I so am the boss. I just wish I could boss those sperm about!
So really even with all this IF crap. The tears and the sadness. In the big scheme of things, I really am a very lucky woman. And I am grateful. Please remind me of this the next time I write a total freak-out, emotionally overblown post. Probably happening around the same time AF is due.
